Interesting Reads.

I've been reading a lot of books lately (as compared to usual). Most of them are about stories of interesting and influential women. I'm not sure why but I'm interested in books about queens and politicians, you know, since i'm the queen and all. Anyhow, I read the book about the last empress of China, pretty impressive stuff, it was apparently based on historical facts but it is fiction. And the White Queen was also similar. The rice mother is about 5 generations of family living in Malaysia. Pretty interesting.
I wanted a book about Margaret Thatcher but sadly I couldn't find it. SO another book looked interesting, so I decided to go with Game Change. Its about the 2008 elections between Obama, Clinton, McCain and Palin. I saw it to be rather interesting. So, being in the current mood that I'm in, depressed and uninspired, I decided to buy that book.
Since my blackberry went all haywire on me, and Im constantly disconnected from the world, I look to reading as a form of inspiration and as a form of time killer. It's nice to get out of the miserable world that I am in and get into the world of inspiration from other people. I like being transported into the world that the author of the book created and just be lost in it.
Have you travelled into the realm of imagination lately? :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Stamina

Woah, I was sick for two weeks before I came back to KL and I after I obtained my Zumba license, I came back and got like an audition. So anyhow, I am still at recovery period, and these coughs last like forever. So after only two bloody songs, I am so tired, I remember being able to do so many songs. Now it's like two songs, and damn I was breathless.

So two days later I had another try out, this time for three songs. On the third song, i wanted to die, and I could tell the members look weird cause my face was getting pale.

God life sucks when I have to re work on my stamina again!

Cheers!

J

I got a new Ipod

I got this Ipod Shuffle at a dirt cheap price. I ordered it from the internet and it is from the previous generation. But still, it's fab:) And i'm so happy with my purchase! :D

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Need Vs Wants

I was talking to my friend about gadgets and I was telling him that I wanted to get an Ipod Shuffle. I also said that I wanted to get this second hand phone that was cheap because my blackberry wasn't working anymore. So anyway, he was telling me about getting new gadgets and all and suggested that instead of getting that second hand phone, i could instead get another blackberry.

Sure, I would love to have a new blackberry, or even a pre-loved blackberry. But at the state that i'm in now, i can't afford it. I have other things to worry about, like paying my rent, paying for my car, paying for my gym, and feeding myself that the last thing i want to do is get a new blackberry, though i really want one.

I am lucky to be where i am, I am blessed to have such a wonderful family who gives me so much, and there are people who are in worse position than I am. I want so many things, I want new clothes, shoes, gadgets, and even money to travel, but due to the fact that I have so many other commitments, I just focus on those instead.

It just makes me sad that I can't get any of these things.

But that's life, we live and we learn.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I-Phone 7

Pictured above is the latest phone to hit the market, which is the latest I-Phone 7! So you apple freaks better start camping out the Apple store to get this marvelous piece of gadget that broke lots of barriers like having a vga camera, a KEYPAD, and a screen that won't react when we touch it! It's a revelation!

Who am i kidding? But seriously, these apple freaks would still line up for days if this was apple's latest creation. Heck, if Apple released a brick and called it an I-phone, the followers will buy it no matter what.

I should stop hating on Apple, but it brings me back to the reason on why I'm blogging. I've been using the phone pictured above because my Blackberry decided to give up on me after one and a half year of hard labour. So over the past one week, I've been using this wonderful piece of technology. No bbm, no facebook, no twitter, no instant googling. God, life is so sad.

But seriously, if i was given this phone back in 2002, I would have been so happy instead of miserable like I am now. It's just that technology has advanced so much in the last ten years that we are spoilt with instant information and instant connectivity to the point of not being used to simple connectivity that we used to enjoy.

So it's been a week, and damn i really miss my blackberry, but what i miss most about my bb isn't the instant connectivity, it's that all my files are in the phone, this crappy ass i-phone 7 cant even load in a memory card.

God, life sucks when you depend on something too much and suddenly have to live without it.

xoxo

j

Attachment

For the first time since I left home for Uni, I have been back in Borneo on the first day of my summer holidays, to the very last day of it. I was back at home from mid November until the end of February. So, with me being filled with activity back at home, I had less amount of time to update my blog.

However, being back here in Kuala Lumpur has been less than pleasant. I've been rather depressed lately about being back here and felt it instantly when I step on the plane to fly back here. I don't hate Kuala Lumpur, I just love home too much. It's like when I get back to Borneo, I don't even feel depressed, I settle in so quickly and I don't even really feel like getting out, with Kuala Lumpur, It takes quite some time for me to get used to the place.

When my cousin, left Borneo for Singapore, she told me she also took it rather hard after being back for a couple of weeks. I thought she was being dramatic but I felt that too when I was back. Lying on my bed, in my KL apartment, it just donned to me that I hate being back, and that I miss Borneo, I miss the people there, I miss my life there.

I started to think about the attachment a person feels for a place, sure, the only place I feel attached to now is Borneo, but the thing is, apart from the place itself playing the role of attachment, other factors also contributes to the feeling of attachment to a certain place. My family is back there, my friends is back there, my life is back there, as compared to KL, where I do have friends, and I do appreciate them, but that is it, I have no life here, just school, and maybe a future.

I know i sound like a depressed queen, and i am right now, but all I want to do is go back home to Borneo, and lie on my bed, and just watch the day go by. That would be by far the best past time for me, if life were only like that of course.

cheers

Jeffrey James

The evolution of my Macaroons :)

So i came back to Borneo with a goal, which is to learn how to make Macaroons:) I remember my first attempt. When I screwed up the whole batch (pictured above). I remember looking at it and thought that it was so ugly. All this while I thought that making Macaroons was easy. But damn it was quite hard.
The second batch got mixed up so in ended up looking like some form of cookies instead of macaroons. It still tasted like macaroons, but in terms of looks. It was quite off.
I made these third batch of pink macaroons with Ness and they turned out pretty good. We flavoured it with red bean filling and honestly, they looked suuper cute!
I made this light blue macaroons on my own, and they're quite nice, i didn't have time to make the filling so I filled them up with Peanut butter!
These are my recent ones. I tried the whole Christmas theme by adding green and red. The softness of the macaroon cookie was perfect as it just melts in your mouth but I screwed up the strawberry filling. Oh well, better luck next time :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Only time can tell

I was talking to my best friend about relationships. From what I know her relationship seems stable. And I somehow envy her cause she has an understanding with her boyfriend.

I am now in a relationship, and I am known as a serial dater. But with this new relationship that I'm getting into, well, it can get emotionally draining. However, I am happy. I'm learning to adapt to this relationship and I am learning from my past mistakes. Like I try not to take things too personally and I try my best to let things go. Like I used to get angered by the smallest things, especially when they don't go my way.

But now I just take it in, breath for awhile, and let it go. Especially if it's something small.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect now but I am trying to work on it. Because in a relationship we work on the relationship and work on ourselves, not really for the other person, but to make us a better and more understanding person.

I'm doing this for myself because everyday is a new experience for me and I am learning more as I go deeper into this relationship. I really care for my partner and I really want to make this work. And so far, I can say that it's going reasonably well:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I'm the Queen Bitch!

So I attended the PhotoShoot for the Miss Universe 2011 finalists. Bear in mind this is a special Miss Universe and not the real kind that is organized in KK. So I am the emcee for the event and I decided to fool around with the crown. Since I'm the Queen and all:) But it's all for good fun and I really love the shoot!

I'm getting a little meaty though:(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I was contemplating on something an ex said to me earlier. I was talking about how serial daters are better than being a slut. But my ex made a good point, it isn't good to be a serial dater because whenever u date someone, you give a part of yourself to that person. So the more you date, the more you lose yourself and maybe eventually someday, there's nothing left to give.

So, dating is very draining, it's so draining emotionally and mentally when it doesn't go well. But of course, there are the good times of dating, which is why people, which is why I always like to date. I get excited with every new 'relationship' that I get into because the honeymoon period is just so awesome! It's not really a bad thing but that's something that needs to be worked on because it isn't healthy.

Like right now, I'm so drained emotionally and mentally but the other person isn't the one to blame. It just reached to the point where it seems like there's nothing left to talk about. But then again, I could be bi-polar. I could be emotionally unstable and I could be worrying too much.

But I will see how I can work this out and see what I can do. I guess I just gotta sleep on it :)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Language?

Before you proceed with my post, read this first http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/muhyiddin-decision-on-ppsmi-final/

So the article basically talks about how they are switching the teachings of Mathematics and Science from the usage of English to the usage of Malay. In general, they're switching the teaching back to Malay after only switching it to English a few years back.

A lot of people are angered by this, well the people who commented on Facebook. I got a little bit irritated by the fact that people are angered by this, I brought up China and Japan and said they were using their national language as their first language in teaching science and maths and they argued that it's not important for them cause they're the second and third largest economy in the world.

But honestly, even though converting back to Malay is a hassle and I don't agree that the government is switching the teachings back and forth, I have no problem and actually prefer Mathematics and Science in Malaysia being taught in Malay, the article further explains that the command in English can be improved in various other ways that don't require the usage of Maths and Science being taught in Malay. And it's true, It's good that they realize this issue.

However, I don't agree on the Deputy Prime Minister condemning the PAGE group as they are minorities in this issue, everyone deserve to be heard, and to be put down fairly instead of how he (DPM) handled it. If he were more diplomatic, he would have put them down in a more positive light saying that there are other methods of learning english and keeping the malay language rather than calling them 'Ketinggalan Zaman' (Backwards).

I am a proud Sabahan, and I am proud that I speak three languages, Fluent English, Reasonably good Malay and Mandarin, I wish the Sabahan Government implemented that students in Sabah have to learn the Kadazan language, I would have love to learn the language.

But when it comes down to Mathematics and Science, it all comes down to the syllabus, not on what language it is being taught in.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Delusional

A friend of mine told me that someone bitched about me behind my back. And i replied by saying that it doesn't matter if people bitched about me. As long as the people who means the world to me (family, close/best friends) still love me for who I am, then the rest of the world can go and screw themselves because I don't care about what they think.

In all honesty, when i heard that someone bitched about me, it did hurt a bit. But when i really thought about it, it didn't matter. I didn't want to know who was the one who bitched about me and I chose not to care. We all live in a world where people talk about other people behind their backs. I'm not saying that I'm guilt free when it comes to these things, but I can honestly say that for people who are close to me, I don't bitch about them.

So today my friend told me the identity of the person who called me 'delusional' among other things. From a certain point, I am delusional, but I don't like that term, I prefer the term dreamer. I tend to dream alot about things that I want to get, and I know where I stand in life and even though I don't know what my future will be like.

However, when I thought about it, I never really talked bad about this person, and from what I know from the supposed 'friend' who bitched about me is that, he is no better than me, I am no better than him. Everyone bitches about everyone but at least I know who I will not be calling anymore.

Xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Savvy Into the Shop

So I've spend about a thousand bucks on the last remainder of my car repairs. Now my car is driving well, I'm so happy that there's no funny sound coming from the tires. All I'm hearing now is the engine that screams like a baby. The more you press the gas, the more harder is the grip to the baby's neck, hence the louder the screeches:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Halloween

So it's the first time i've attended Halloween parties in Kuala Lumpur. I missed the party last year because I was at home with my lover watching movies and I missed it two years ago because I had no life back then:)
So I wasn't planning on going to Frangipani on Friday night but my friend wanted to go, so I ended up dressing up as a person who is "free", my costume was basically 'free' la. Night was nice, mingled with lots of people and had reasonable amount of fun:)
On Saturday night however, was the bomb! I don't really remember much of what happened then but I was a reject cullen/reject Korean Boy band member that night as I wore a black suit accompanied with eyeliner and mascara. I must say that i look quite good with the eyeliner and no wonder why these Koreans are so obsessed with it!
I don't remember much of Saturday night because I drank alot but I did manage to meet SOMEONE hot, whom I don't really remember. But I awoken the next morning just remembering I met someone hot, didn't know the name, forgotten how the person looked like, I just know HOT!
Don't you get those kind of feeling sometimes?

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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xoxo

Jeffrey James